Here's a snippet of convo with my friend noel about what i'd really like to do with my life...

Slayngren: be a hermit like me
LUshUss05: yeah
Slayngren: i'm gonna end up as some crazed dude living on the craggy rock beaches of scotland in a hut
Slayngren: fishing for food
LUshUss05: thats sounds so awesome
Slayngren: people will come to me to hear me tell the future
LUshUss05: haha
Slayngren: or curse their enemies
Slayngren: with my eerie magic
LUshUss05: oh is that what you excel at?
Slayngren: no i just excel at being angry
Slayngren: just one of the many things i'm good at
Slayngren: but being angry helps the whole hermit thing
LUshUss05: hehe
LUshUss05: how bout i live on a deserted island across the sea from you and we send each other messages in bottles every day
Slayngren: mine will eventually degenerate into gibberish
Slayngren: you know that right?
LUshUss05: thats cool
Slayngren: and sooner or later i'll forget it's you that sends me messages
LUshUss05: just some kind of contact
Slayngren: and i'll believe they come from the sea god
Slayngren: goddess excuse me
LUshUss05: we can send reflected messages at night
Slayngren: and i'll make crazy sacrifices and stuff
LUshUss05: like cutting your ear off and sending that to me?
Slayngren: i need those ears
Slayngren: but i'll send you weird dolls made out of my extraordinarily crusty hair
LUshUss05: aw dolls!!
Slayngren: which will be down to my ankles
Slayngren: in giant dreadlocks of dath
Slayngren: death that is
LUshUss05: thats hot
Slayngren: with various sea creatures living in them
LUshUss05: hahaha
Slayngren: seriously i wnat to look like that
Slayngren: in all seriousness
LUshUss05: like a merman
Slayngren: if i could do that i would
Slayngren: my ideal look would be 'sewer monster'
LUshUss05: hehehe
Slayngren: so the ugliness without reflects the ugliness within
Slayngren: i don't want to be 'dark and sexy'
LUshUss05: but i dont think it would be ugly...
LUshUss05: well not sexy maybe
Slayngren: i want to be 'dark and hideously horribly repugnant'
LUshUss05: but cool
LUshUss05: : (
Slayngren: i mean i'd still kinda look like me
Slayngren: but i'd have a giant beard and weird dreadlocks
Slayngren: and like old 19th century suitcoat
LUshUss05: and you know it would be cool
Slayngren: frayed beyond belief
Slayngren: coolness is key
LUshUss05: ok
LUshUss05: good
Slayngren: and once a year i'd swim out into the ocean naked to 'mate with the sea'
Slayngren: oh man it'd be frikkin ridiculous
Slayngren: at the end of my life my hideous army of monstrous sea creatures, half man half abomination would rise out of the depths to claim my home
Slayngren: the villagers would speak of the event for centuries
Slayngren: awaiting my terrifying return for their children
Slayngren: shwy oh why isn't my life like this
Slayngren: i would give anything
LUshUss05: youll just have to compromise i guess
Slayngren: yeah i guess squatting down in the shower and making growling noises will have to do
Slayngren: and mating with the sea frankly sounds kinda gross
LUshUss05: a bit murky yes
Slayngren: but i'd do it if i was crazy
Slayngren: and god willing someday i will be
LUshUss05: i think youre on the right track